The Mild Side

So, it takes me forever to fall asleep at night. From the time I crawl into bed to the time I fall asleep it's seldom less than an hour. While I wait for sleep, I think. Sometimes about what I've done that day, sometimes about what I have to do the next day. Sometimes I plan out scrapbook layouts in my head or silently will myself to hurry up and fall asleep.

The other night in the midst of this process I started thinking about how my life has changed since I became a mom. Before I became "Brendan's Mommy" I was just Sarah. I liked to go to concerts, travel and have a few drinks with friends. I still enjoy those things, but life has taken a different turn so that those things matter less. An enjoyable day now might be spent looking for bugs in the grass or playing with Play-Doh. Having a child allows the parent to revisit his or her childhood all over again with the benefit of hindsight.

In effect, my life has gone from the Wild Side to the Mild Side, and that's ok. I was never a person who had a career path that was set in stone in my head. I was never one of those people who woke up in the morning knowing that someday I was going to be a nurse or a teacher. All I've really ever known is that I wanted to be a mom. The rest is just details.